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Once you stop thinkering about something, trying to get an answer or conclusion, it'll come to you. True facts. My epiphany finally arrived. I knew I had to do a few things; but was in turmoil and sort of distress about how to go about it. Now I know. With that, I just got an overwhelming sense of peace. So yeah, that was the right answer. I know I did my best and no one was harmed---aside myself.

Shan't go into it right now detail wise; but some thing was severely affecting my health. When I get stressed I lose my appetite. When I went to get my kenalog round #2 last week my doctor was ALARMED that I now weigh 95#. I had been down to 100#, which concerned her. She knew what was causing me stress and whereas she always laughs at my foibles when I gave her a litany of some of the things she didn't laugh ONCE. Not even at the one that usually induces a laugh. She said none of it was funny. Sadly, aside from the one thing, she's right. Trying to tie up loose ends, as I'm not a total cunt (I try not to be), has been even more stress inducing.

Let the loose ends fly. I can't tie 'em if others hold the string. No more jumping up to grab them. Fly away loose ends, fly fly fly.

Several emails shall be composed, a proper notice, and a door shall be closed quietly behind me. Live and learn. It's never too late.

Now I need to maintain a mantra that taking care of myself isn't selfish. Thanks vivian. I had an appetite today too! Good sign there!! When you really haven't eaten much you can't eat much at a time. Was gonna have a pepper tofurky daiyra swiss wrap and blood orange for lunch, and the wrap totally stuffed me. Was hungry an hour or so later and had my orange then. Had gotten a sushi platter which I use to be able to demolish in one sitting, and could only eat 1/4 of it. Though, again, an hour or so later I was hungry again and had some salsa and chips. So small frequent meals for awhile methinks. I also need to get back to baking sweets, as I demolish them off in a day or two when they're about. It's difficult to try to do yard work when you get tired and/or feel weak. Frustrating too. This shall be changed in the right, positive, direction.

Plenty of things to attend to here inside and out---and myself included. An internet based thing is my vintage ads' community event calendar. No, still not done. I have to spend who knows how long somewhere one day this week and I should be able to do that there as I'll have wifi and can just work on it there. Doesn't require total concentration so that should be fine. It will have to be fine.

Lots more to blog about and I have lots of pix to post but um, it's almost bedtime. I'll try again tomorrow.

Oh one more tidbit. Something that DID make my doctor laugh. I thought I pulled a muscle coughing. Since now I'm paranoid of the ribs by the center of my chest popping out, I hold them while coughing and after I did that during a coughing fit (allergies, hence kenalog round #2), I had a pain sort of by the back of my left arm pit. Looked on mr. google and it seemed like the major teres [sic?] muscle. Hurt worse when I had my arm down. She was examining this and started laughing. I just looked at her with a 'dafuq?' look and....drum roll....rib cage dysfunction!! Back there?! DAFUQ?! Well yeah, golly gee, that's part of my rib cage too. At least with this one there's something to be done and it has done wonders---even right there in the office. Stretching my left arm over my head and holding it for at least 10 seconds. Yes, rib cage dysfunction is something to laugh about, cuz 1) it is the most amusing ICD-10 code I've ever had and 2) who the hell keeps having rib cage dysfunctions like this?!

She said it would hurt more with my arm down as things would be more compressed with it like that. The arm stretches have done wonders though, so yeah!!

Now I gotta get ready for bed.


( 6 Peaces spoken — Speak your peace )
May. 9th, 2016 01:09 pm (UTC)
hey tia. sorry i haven't been on this much, but i just wanted to let you know i'm alive and do plan on starting to blog more on here as well as try to do the vintage ads when i can since i do miss those. :) i hope you are doing well and i will be reading this later. i'm getting a little tired so going to go and lay down. :D talk to you later girl.
May. 23rd, 2016 01:26 am (UTC)
you don't have to apologize!! that's why lj is always here---waiting for ya when you feel like! :) glad to hear from you though!! if you pop into vintage ads i finally got our event calendar done thru july 2017, YEAH!!! :D
May. 14th, 2016 09:47 am (UTC)
My ribs do hat too, sugar.

And I'm still fucked up after last month's folly and body slam onto the tile-over-concrete floor. So boo-hiss on the damn rib front...coughing I can prepare for, it's sneezing that is killing me!
May. 23rd, 2016 01:28 am (UTC)
why are our ribs trying to escape?!?!

i'm sorry you're still fuckered up :( ((gentle hugs)) and i just realized i need to forward you the email about today's neighborhood tomfoolery.....since my regular email isn't always received by others, look for for an email subject "ah, robinette' from me......
May. 23rd, 2016 01:47 am (UTC)
will do, sugar!
May. 23rd, 2016 01:48 am (UTC)
just sent it! :)
( 6 Peaces spoken — Speak your peace )


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