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Bowie has left this existence.....

I get up (duh) go to a few sites (weather, comics, local news) then go to the bunker and the headline was Bowie 1947-2016. Wh-wh-WHAT?!?!!? WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!? What the goddamn fuck?!?! No, that cannot be!!! I go to the BBC, FUCK!!! No, it really cannot be!! But it is, it is. I didn't think he looked well but attributed it to overwork on his new album, videos, and play. He was immortal and would never die, right? HOW CAN THIS BE?!?! I've had an ongoing existential crisis for a few years thinking about a world without David Bowie existing in it. Even if he didn't release anything, to know he was alive on earth some how gave off some beacon of creativity, hope, and wonder. He did release things though; but I meant like 10 years from now. Now he's returned to the stars, where I think he originally came from. He couldn't have been mere mortal, could he have been?

I remember one of the first times I saw him on TV as a wee imp. I was 4, it was 1973. He was in a dress and I couldn't figure out if he was a man or a woman (I was 4, 1973). Of course my birth mother wouldn't answer my question, aside from telling me I was stupid. I eventually determined it didn't matter what sex he was because he/she was AWESOME. I attribute my open mindedness and acceptance of others to him. 42 years of Bowie fandom. A constant in my life. Escape in the music, joy from the music, given curiosity from the music, whole range of emotions from his music; but it's always been THERE. He's always been there. Evolving, moving forward, challenging himself and thereby challenging listeners to evolve, move forward with him.

I am just sitting here beyond shocked and we have enough music to last us; but we don't have HIM. A genius visionary who perhaps truly was not of this earth. My goodness how can one cry so much over an individual one didn't personally know?

His last video.....the lyrics for Lazarus

Look up here, I’m in heaven
I’ve got scars that can’t be seen
I’ve got drama, can’t be stolen
Everybody knows me now
Look up here, man, I’m in danger
I’ve got nothing left to lose
I’m so high it makes my brain whirl
Dropped my cell phone down below
Ain’t that just like me
By the time I got to New York
I was living like a king
Then I used up all my money
I was looking for your ass
This way or no way
You know, I’ll be free
Just like that bluebird
Now ain’t that just like me
Oh I’ll be free
Just like that bluebird
Oh I’ll be free
Ain’t that just like me


( 2 Peaces spoken — Speak your peace )
Jan. 12th, 2016 06:08 pm (UTC)
Almost couldn't watch Lazarus, but i made it through.

RIP Starman.
Jan. 13th, 2016 02:45 am (UTC)
I've made myself watch it a few times......sadistic? dunno.....perhaps therapeutic??

driving to the doctor today---nail gun prolia shot---i had to quickly ch-ch-ch-change the radio station cuz they were playing bowie.....not in the van.....not in driving.....nope....not now.....
( 2 Peaces spoken — Speak your peace )


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